2:30 AM Thoughts

“The day wasn’t a total waste. i enjoyed it:D The only thing missing is her. I miss her badly! 😦 SUPER. I know it’s my fault for us being this way. I don’t deserve her. When she’s got all the time and gives all her effort for me i just lay around doing nothing. Staying TAMAD. I love her yet I can’t seem to make her happy anymore. What can I do? 😦 I don’t know. I’ll ponder on things for now and hope for the best. All I know is that i can’t leave her. Not just because I don’t want to disappoint her. Not just because I want to prove to her that there’s really a forever. Not just because I don’t wanna be the fucking guy who breaks her heart. She’s a good person. She deserves better. I won’t leave her for the simple reason that I love her. Yeah, sounds cliche but it’s true. I’m lucky enough to have her in my life. Let’s see how long true love will last. She might not believe me but I’m betting on forever:)) I can hope for nothing more. just the thought of a future with her gives me strength. The strength to not give up and keep going. Even if there might be a chance of pain in the end.”

I remember having my old blog that turned 7 years today so I decided to back read everything. This is one of my favorite. I am not sure if I wrote this or someone wrote it for me (LOL) but doesn’t really matter.

I just like the thought that love is connected to all sort of emotions including pain, that “some” people still believe that true love exist and in the parallel universe, someone is fighting hard to keep the relationship smooth- sailing.

To that special girl who is reading this entry, I hope you find the one who will give you butterflies in your stomach even after a long time, who will make you feel special in doing the simplest of things and I hope you’ll marry your true love because its worth it and nothing more, be with someone who can accept your flaws and love you just the way you are and vice versa.

The ability to forgive and endure pain says a lot about how badly you want to be with someone so follow your heart but use your mind.

Awesome List 2017

Ever since I moved to Singapore, my life has been pretty dull (not complaining though). I’ve always wanted a simple life away from politics and away from all the “noise”  so having a peaceful and dull life could be the only reason why I am still in Singapore and why I might not go back anytime soon.

I am writing this because I am bored. I know a New Year’s Resolution might be late but I figured I need to do something or I might just waste another year watching series and over thinking about life.

Since I’m 25, I figured I need atleast 25 things that I haven’t done  to be included in my awesome list. Promise to do atleast half HAHA (Calling it awesome list instead of bucket list)


  1. Climb Mt. Agung
  2. Explore Gold Coast, Australia – http://blog.queensland.com/2015/08/07/100-things-to-do-gold-coast/ for reference
  3. Spend Autumn in Japan
  4. Finish a half marathon (Marathon for next year) – Who am I kidding…..
  5. Sign up for a cooking class in Singapore
  6. Volunteer for something I believe can make a difference
  7. Climb Mt. Pulag, Philippines
  8. Brainstorm for a business idea
  9. Read at least 20 books
  10. Climb Mt. Ophir, Johor Bahru – http://tamanhutanlagenda.blogspot.sg/p/price-list.html
  11. Watch Coldplay Concert ❤
  12. Stand up Padding
  13. Join a “meet-up” session in Singapore and meet new friends
  14. Learn Basic Coding
  15. Join a food or drinking competition
  16. Hike the Dragon’s Back in HK
  17. Learn Mandarin (More like speak Mandarin fluently)
  18. Sell/Donate all “excess” things
  19. Singapore Flyer!
  20. Watch Formula 1
  21. Try GX-5 (extreme swing) with friends – G-Max (reverse bungy) for 2018 HAHA
  22. Kayaking at Palau Ubin
  23. Spend Christmas in PH
  24. Audition for a play
  25. Update blog regularly

I will probably make a blog about each one for my reference. I can’t wait to highlight everything, starting with the Coldplay Concert and the half- marathon this April.

PS Hi friends support me pls, thanks.